How to Stand in Your Purpose - Part 3
Step 3 - Listen
Let's review. Step 1 was to love yourself (read Part 1 here). Easier said then done. I learned so much and saw things in such a different way when I learned to love myself! The thing is, if you're like I was, you won't even know you don't love yourself until you actually love yourself. Step 2 was to breathe (read Part 2 here). I didn't allow myself the time to stop and breathe before Dad got sick. When breathing became the alternative to losing my mind, I had to. What I found in those moments of pause was beautiful, but before I could truly take them in I had to listen.
I didn't know how to clear my mind and listen! I started to meditate. I was terrible. I would fall asleep or 5 minutes in I'd realize I forgot that I was meditating and have to start over. I remember one time I was in a deep meditative state for the first time ever and I literally jumped out of my chair! It scared the sh!t out of me! It was the first time in my life that I stopped my brain and just listened. That's when beautiful things started happening.
I had let the Universe know that I was open. I was ready to listen and I was ready to use my gifts in whatever way I was here to use them. You see, I finally believed that I had gifts to offer the world because I finally loved myself enough to see them. I started to meet the right people. I started to read the right books. I started to let the thoughts in that would lead me to my purpose.
I thought I knew what I wanted to do with myself. I became a certified Primal Health coach and thought that was it...but something was missing. I couldn't get my other passions out of my brain, "but I love design and I've always wanted to be a real estate agent! That can't be what I do! I just spent all this time and money on my coaching certificate! What the hell!?" I remember yelling, "I'm trying to be open and listen but I'm getting mixed messages! I don't know what to do."
So, I stopped trying so hard and just listened. One day I was in the shower and it all came to me. Soul Space: Your body is the only space you ever have to live and it should reflect your soul and be the vehicle to experience your life. Your home should also be your soul space and should reflect the energy and vibe that you want it to. It should make you smile. Could I really do it all?! Could I really have a business that allows me the chance to use all of my passions?! Hell yes! And I was being told exactly how to do it! I finally listened!
There it was. All laid out for me. Now all I had to do was be brave enough to jump and go for it. So I did. I got my real estate license and I quit my job. A job I loved very much but I knew I had outgrown. For the first time, I didn't have to have it all figured out. I just believed in myself (remember Step 1-I finally loved myself), I breathed, and I listened. I took that step without having a clue where that staircase was leading.
I still don't know what is to come for me. That's ok. I know without a doubt that I am doing what I'm here to do and helping who I'm here to help. I'm showing my kids how to follow their dreams and that they don't have to live by the world's set of rules if those rules don't bring them more life. I wake up everyday excited and ready for what's to come. It's the first time I can truly say that I'm proud of myself and I am exactly where I'm supposed to be...can you say the same?